Are you holding me , or am i holding myself?

This film is a self study examining the relationship between our minds and our bodies, our thoughts and our actions, and the sometimes insurmountable gaps between what we think we want to feel and what we actually experience.

In this film I pose the question “Are you holding me, or am I holding myself?” and I attempt to answer it through a movement study describing the relationship between myself as an individual-a sensitive and receptive human body, and between various external influences. I am placing the human body in extreme conditions. Sometimes existing in a more grounded or neutral reality, while at other times existing in a warmer more surreal world, I investigate what it is to create and struggle with certain boundaries that stem from self reflection/self torment over past experiences, and the means by which we think we can achieve an ideal emotional or physical state.

Does our self perception hinder us? In recognizing our patterns, good and bad, are we really just making the realization that we are our own worst enemies? The realization that I sought through this film is that we are all looking for a human connection, someone to hold us as well as someone to hold.

DIRECTION, CONCEPT AND PERFORMANCE : CÉSAR BRODERMANN

CINEMATOGRAPHY: ANGELO VASTA

MUSIC PRODUCER: JORDAN CHIOLLIS

EDITION: CÉSAR BRODERMANN

COLORING: WINNIE CHEUNG

EXTRA PERFORMERS:  KYREED JORDAN, CONNOR SPEETJENS

SPECIAL THANKS TO SEBASTIAN ABARBANELL 

Screenings

International Premiere

-Cannes art film festival  May 2018. Cannes, France      WINNER SECOND PLACE 

 -OAK FILM FESTIVAL TX 2018

- LGBT Toronto Film Festival / Carlton Cinemas/ Toronto, Canada, 2018

New Fillmakers / Anthology Film Archives New York, United States. 2018 . AUDIENCE CHOICE AWARD 

MIDWEST RAD FEST/                Kalamazoo Institute of the Arts /  Michigan, United States 2018

Picture Farm Film Festival/Wythe Hotel/ New York,                          United States. 2018